i hate it when i get super passive-aggressive ಠ_ಠ like, sometimes, i don't even realize i'm being one but some people just. automatically bring that side of you. that side of me. farkkkkk. i hate when it happens e___e like, i can just be honest about it but i don't want to ruin anything at the same time e__e fuu this shiii.
i also happen to hate that feeling of knowing something, that nagging suspicion of something going on behind your back. like, you know what people are up to, what they're talking about behind your back and you're just here trying to act normal, like you don't know anything because you are not meant to know anything about it. and then you're just there waiting for them to tell you the truth but it never happens and just fucking bitches why can't you be upfront about anything you have against me?
oh god, i just have a lot of feelings, don't i?
yeah, but as i said. i tried. I FREAKING TRIED. but i just, can't anymore. once respect went out of the window, it will stay there forever. impressions are important to me, and once it's ruined, i cannot accept or see things the same anymore. well fuck. hahajahakjhda i just know things will never be the same again so can we just stop being nice and pretend to like each other because to be freaking honest, it's exhausting.
Labels: hate my life, personal, rants, ಠ_ಠ
