Shitty title for a shitty post on a shitty day / Tuesday, August 27, 2013 at 11:30 PM
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…to be very honest, I actually wanted to blog a lot but a sudden laziness surge over me and I don’t know if I want to anymore? Hahahah
Well, it’s been a shitty day for me (who am I kidding, I’m living a shitty life on a daily basis) and I feel like I can only write it down cause somehow writing makes me feel better…but I don’t even know where to begin \o///
Okay first of all, I had a job interview this morning. I was so nervous, I won’t lie on that part. Upon arrival, four other girls were already there waiting for the same interview. I saw a couple of familiar faces and I feel a little bit comforted, but the nerves did not go away. I tried memorizing the bank’s (yes it was a bank) history and background and all but nothing gets into my head. I felt even more anxious when the other candidates were all so calm and shit like WOMAN HOW DO YOU. So anyway, we were called one by one and I came in fourth.
When they called my name, I wasn’t that nervous anymore? I don’t know. Maybe it was…a feeling hahaha like I don’t know, “I don’t care what’s going to happen to me after this” kind of feeling. And boy I was wrong because I’m still living in the embarrassment of the moment hahahahajsadhjasg
They started talking about my personality traits chart or something and I just froze I HAD NO IDEA WHAT THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT AND I WAS RUDELY STARING? I didn’t even know they were asking me questions until silence fell and I was all, umm sorry sir you were saying???? This happened a lot during the interview okay T__T
As expected they asked about what I know about the bank and I feel like shit already hahaha I couldn’t answer ANYTHING and I was stuttering like fuck and I don’t know what I said back then. My sudden lack of ability to string words together both baffled and embarrassed me at the same time. Omg why did I say what I said HOW DO I LIVE WITH THIS EMBARRASSMENT, WITH MYSELF
Will I ever be able to get over this humiliation u__u
I don’t want to work at a bank anymore, the interview is scary Hahahaa /punches everyone
That being said, I know a lot of people are pissed off and disappointed in me for screwing the interview. I know, I know. I feel like shit too. One of the interviewers asked me if I was shy of meeting new people (cause bank tellers will meet a heck lot of people in their works) and I wanted to say no (but my personality test prolly said otherwise) because I’m friendly okay I like meeting new people and I talk a lot but I guess internet and real life situations are in no way similar u__u I might have met a lot of people on the internet and made a lot of friends but that doesn’t mean I’m a social butterfly (apakan sial ngam kah tu words nya? Hahah) in real life too. Sedih jua hahaha. I SHOULD GO OUT MORE AND SOCIALIZE AND PARTICIPATE IN REAL LIFE CONVERSATIONS TO BOOST MY CONFIDENCE AND SOCIAL SKILLS AND ABILITY TO MEMBUAL
Okay I’m a little sad I screwed the interview.
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